See the Light by Cassandra Carr – Review

Publisher: Loose ID LLC

Print Length: 131 pages

Published 25 Feb 2013

Genre- LGBT, Contemporary

Book Summary

Hockey player Jason Monroe lives a double life—star defenseman and soon-to-be Olympian on the ice and closeted gay man outside the rink. A serious relationship is out of the question, and Jason makes do with anonymous sex in barroom bathrooms, not willing to take the chance on coming out as gay in a decidedly macho sport.

Advisor to the US Olympic hockey team Patrick Parker knows a thing or two about being a professional hockey player who’s not out. He’s fifteen years older than Jason, and when he senses the sexy younger man is interested, he knows he shouldn’t give in to the attraction.

The two men can’t keep their hands off each other, though, and with each heated encounter it gets harder to hide their relationship. When their world blows up around them, forcing them into the limelight, though, will their love survive or be put on ice?


Jason “Roney” Monroe had a big problem.
His current dilemma came in the form of the woody he’d popped a couple of seconds ago when he’d gotten an eyeful of Patrick Parker as the man washed himself in the shower after the first day of USA Hockey’s pre-Olympics camp. Since it was the first day, all the players and the off-ice staff like Patrick had participated.

The fact that he’d gotten harder than a fence post looking at any man’s junk was bad enough, but one of the advisors? That was all kinds of wrong.

Usually Jason was better able to tamp down on his lust for his fellow man. He’d been doing it for years, after all. Professional sports weren’t exactly welcoming gay athletes with open arms, and he wasn’t keen on getting punched in the shower when some meathead noticed him staring. So he’d tried to condition himself, hoping if he saw enough cock, had his dick sucked enough, and fucked enough tight asses outside the locker room, he’d become desensitized to his teammates’ equipment.

The older man continued to methodically soap himself, and Jason bit his lip, trying desperately to muster up the will to turn away, to not look. Yeah, like asking him not to breathe. It was one of those dirty little secrets no one ever talked about in hockey—that your jockstrap made your cock and balls sweat like a motherfucker and, therefore, itch like crazy. If you didn’t wash thoroughly enough, you’d be feeling it for the rest of the day. That didn’t make Jason feel any better right now, though, as his brain flooded with images of other ways Patrick could be touching himself. And ways he could be touching Patrick. Or Patrick could be touching him.

Fuck. Camp is gonna suck.


I loved the blurb for this book. Young twenty two year old hot hockey star falling for an thirty seven year old, more experienced and definitely more world wise coach.  I wanted to read about the way the subject of gay sports stars was tackled, find out what made the two men tick, and enjoy some hot man on man action. I wanted to read about the conflict and challenges these two men faced in not only managing the fact they were gay in a male dominated world, but how they handled the age gap between them.

In most of the areas I wasn’t disappointed. The book certainly held some very sexy and exciting play in and off the field and the bedroom. Jason and Patrick certainly had the sexual chemistry in this relationship. The phone sex and the clandestine meetings between this couple to try and keep their relationship a secret was well handled and very enjoyable.

I knew nothing about hockey before I started reading this book and I really enjoyed the sense of competition that these men bring to their game, and reading about the way they play and the ins and outs of this incredibly fascinating Olympic sport.

The dialogue was easy to read, the flow of the story was good and the interplay between Jason and his team mates, both those who knew of his homosexuality and those who didn’t like it, was well tackled. It was heart warming to see that Jason had his champions within his friends and co team mates.

I liked the way that even a confident, experienced man like Patrick was vulnerable, saying to Jason, ‘Sometimes I feel like this old guy you’re patronising or something’ and Jason’s vehement response that that most certainly wasn’t the case.

And to me, this is where my disappointment set in. I would have liked to find out more about the two men, how they felt about the age difference, what the challenges they faced might have been in Patrick being fifteen years Jason’s senior. I didn’t feel this was tackled much in the book.  I don’t feel I really got to know either of the character in depth other than in a sexual way. The final part of the book, when there is a tragic event and Jason finds out just how much he has fallen in love with Patrick was, for me,  the point at which these two men’s emotions only come into play. I would have liked to have seen more of this as I was reading from the start.

I enjoyed the book, I loved the characters even though I think I would have loved to have found out more about them emotionally and I’m a sucker for happy ever afters so to me all’s well that ends well.  I just hope that Patrick and Jason got their HEA and went on to have a long and fruitful relationship. Perhaps a follow up to their story might be a good idea….I’d read it to see how these two guys are doing, definitely!


Harlie here….see Cassandra, she wants more too!  He he!


Author Information

Cassandra Carr lives in Western New York with her gorgeous husband, who is the inspiration for her heroes. After all, who doesn’t love a man who’s smart, sexy, AND sane? She also has a young daughter who is clearly her mother’s daughter, as she demands to be read to for hours every day. Cassandra is a huge hockey fan, which explains why many of her heroes are hockey players.

She writes every chance she gets, but most of her work is done before her daughter wakes up in the morning, while she naps in the afternoon, or after she goes to bed at night. She finds that her heroes get tortured a lot more often in the evening when she’s exhausted from chasing her child around, but what’s a good story without a tortured hero?

Cassandra is a member of the leading professional association for romance novelists, Romance Writers of America, and also belongs to her local chapter and Passionate Ink, the special interest group of RWA devoted to erotic romance. Cassandra also writes contemporary single-title romance.

Links to reach Cassandra Carr:
Main Web site
Yahoo Group

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