My review of Take Me, Break Me will post in the evening. 🙂 One word….okay, two words…HOLY CRAP! And those are good words.
Jodie is scraping the barrel trying to stay afloat. An idea arrives that could rescue her finances and bring her together in a kinky way with a man she never gave up on. She’s terrified and fascinated, and tempted as hell.
Capture fantasies rule her eBook. Re-enacting one in a documentary would surely be irresistible viewing to millions of women?
But Jodie and Klaus discover that underneath an ordinary man dark desires may lurk. What will win in the end? The man and lover, or the monster?
As I kissed and tasted the tears that had leaked from under the blindfold, I said in a harsh whisper, “I enjoyed seeing you scream and try to escape, loved seeing you dancing away from the cane. Your ass – I’d declare it a work of art. Yeah…” I touched our foreheads together and looked down over her face, stared into her blindfolded eyes, and at her trembling full lips and those amazing tears. I traced my finger down the wet track on one cheek.
My murmur was soft but as deadly, I hoped, as a knife thrust. “I never thought I’d say this, but I enjoy this. You might be in trouble.”
Truth and mind fuck rolled into one scorching bundle. Yes, she was in trouble, but then so was I.
I wanted to do it again. I’d saved her and cared for her so many times. She was a beautiful woman, with a mostly beautiful heart, and I wanted to hurt her and swallow those screams. God, I was so fucked up.
“I love reading capture fantasies. How hard was it to write about?
I like to wander off the beaten path if I can but I also tend to write what I enjoy. So was this a hard story to write? Compared to say, Steel Dominance, which is a complex steampunk fantasy where I had to imagine a lot of out-of-this-world things and weave them together, no, it wasn’t hard. Once I imagined myself into the shoes of Klaus, my sadistic Dominant, I found it was fairly easy to write. However, I wasn’t sure I’d done what I wanted to when I finished this story. I wanted to make people think a little harder than they might with some capture fantasies. And I wanted the reader to end up liking Klaus. I know with at least some of my beta readers, I did both of those.
In many capture fantasies the man isn’t a terribly likeable person – I mean he’s often kidnapped the woman and made her do things she did not want to. Even if the reader gets a thrill out of that, it doesn’t mean the man is someone you actually like a lot, or admire. I wanted to do both – make the reader like Klaus, and make them see him as someone they could admire. Certainly I wanted to make it so whatever Klaus did, we could understand why he does them.
When I began Take Me, Break Me, I didn’t know how much of a sadist Klaus would turn out to be, so it was interesting to see the story unroll. I think I’d have to say I discovered my own inner sadist writing this. To write it I had to sympathize and I had to see what he does as desirable. I’ve decided that I write using a form of method acting. I tend to inhabit the person whose point of view I write from. As I said to a beta reader, don’t hand me a crop. J
Many of the capture fantasies I’ve read have been set in another world or time, and sometimes they are total fantasy and could never come true. When you read a story, how close do you get to reality before things fuzz together and you go, no way, I don’t really want that to happen?
Dreaming something is quite different to having it happen. The thing with BDSM is that quite often people are living out their kinky fantasies. Quite often that is the whole point. I wanted to take this story as close to the bone as I could, to plonk it bang center into the ‘real’ world and then to see where it ended up. I didn’t actually plan for this book to end up as close as it does to ‘real’ BDSM, but it was great that it did. Role playing is a big part of BDSM for many people – believing that the other person is truly submitting to you, or dominating you, for instance – so for Take Me, Break Me to morph into a story about a couple discovering BDSM was wonderful.
Of course BDSM is defined as consensual, and this story does blur that line of consent.
I guess the hardest thing about writing this was toeing that line between yes, I agreed to this being done to me, and no, I do not agree. Much of the time with what happens in Take me, Break Me, I was trying to keep the reader guessing. I wanted to make the reader wonder if Klaus would truly stop everything if he was asked. I think I managed to do this, but time will tell. I’ll wait and see what readers tell me.
For those who think this seems an easy story to tell, have a think and try to come up with story ideas set in modern times, where it’s close to capture fantasy, and yet the man is still someone you might call a good person.
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